LINDA (35-45 years) *EXPLICIT*

Magnolia

by Paul Thomas Anderson 

(to Alan, the family lawyer)

If I talk to you… y’know… if I tell you things… then you’re a lawyer, right? You can’t say things, you can’t tell anyone, it’s like the privilege, right? Attorney-client, you understand? Like a shrink, like if I go to see a shrink, I’m protected, I can say things- I don’t know what I’m doing- I have something to tell you. I have to tell you something. I want to change his will, can I change his will? I need to-  you see… I never loved him. I never loved him, Earl. When I started, when I met him, I met him and I fucked him and I married him because I wanted his money, do you understand? I’m telling you this now… this I’ve never told anyone… I didn’t love him. And now… I know I’m in that will, I know, I was there with him, we were all there together when we made that fucking thing and all the money I’ll get- I don’t want it- Because I love him so much now, I’ve fallen in love with him now, for real, as he’s dying, and I look at him and he’s about to go, Alan, he’s dead-  I took care of him through this, Alan. And what now, then? I don’t want him to die, I didn’t love him when we met, and I’ve done so many bad things to him that he doesn’t know, things I want to confess to him, but now I do: I love him. I love him so much and I can’t stand- he’s going! I don’t know- can you give me nothing? You have power of attorney, can you see him, can you, in this final fucking moment, go see him and make sure- change the fucking will- I don’t want any money, I couldn’t live with myself, this thing I’ve done- I’ve fucking done so many things- I fucked around on him, I fucking cheated on him, Alan. You’re his lawyer, our lawyer, THERE, I’m his wife, we are married. I broke the contract of marriage, many times over, I sucked other men’s cocks and… fuck… other things I’ve done. This is so over the top and fucked up I can hardly stand it. I have to go.

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